New Year, Stronger Faith

This was how I welcomed 2015. I watched the fireworks through our glass window alone in our room while the rest of the family went up to the rooftop and feasted on a 360 degree view of the whole metro. I told them I’ll just sit it out while they watch upstairs as I got tired preparing our media noche. But the truth was I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts, even just for a few minutes.

I was scared. A big change was coming. The start of 2015 was welcoming me with a big burly sack of problems on my shoulders. Becca, Lyndel’s Ate for the past years, left so she can pursue her studies. Mr. Husband on the other hand, had to look for another job as he had already left his job of 7 years. He was supposed to go into a very promising business that he already set up but things didn’t work out with his partner. I was so scared of what might happen to us. I panicked thinking how our home management will go. I panicked how long can we survive on a single income household. I panicked on how I will be able to parent Lyndel with all these worries.

I reveled at the stillness of the new year. I took a deep breath and said a prayer and cried and cried.

This first quarter happened like a blur. I can’t believe it’s already March and I survived it. We already have a new help around the house (finally). We’re still job hunting and praying for it. As I look back on what happened the past months, I am truly grateful that He has guided me and picked me up when I was down. God held me and comforted me and I felt his reassuring presence. He sure plucked me out of my comfort zone, scared me out of my wits. But now I realize that all these is a part of His grand plan for us.

Losing Becca may have meant that it was time for me to be more hands-on with Lyndel. I must admit, Becca helped me a lot in molding Lyndel to be who he is now – a caring, thoughtful boy. He had to take Becca away so I can stand on my own, even if I’m so busy at work. Maybe God is saying: “it’s your time to really shine Momma”. I still haven’t made sense about the job-hunting part. But maybe I really don’t have to. Maybe I just really need to trust the process, trust Him. Completely.

Update: As of April 1, we are back to being a help-less household again.

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I am excited about what will happen next. I can’t wait for His plan to unfold. ☺️

Image source: Unknown via Facebook

The Best of 2012 (in pictures)

I was browsing through my Facebook albums and I can’t help but sigh and think: “Lyndel grows so fast”. These photos below represent the best of 2012, although I still have to add more :)

For starters,

Dreaming about my craft station

Only a few friends know this. I have an up and coming decor and accessories line for nurseries and kids rooms. I remember fully well early this year when I was starting on my designs – I’d sneak out of our unit just to create my crafts. I had to do that because I have a super curious toddler and I won’t have any work done when he’s around. There was a time when I camped out of our unit with all of my tools and materials. But it was such a pain as I always had to go back inside when I needed to: use the glue gun, use the flat iron, or work on a proper table.I must have a proper craft station.

 These days, I find myself wandering to craft sites and pinterest and dream about my craft station. This photo below is my first option :) Paging Lyndon, this is my dream craft station :) hehe

Source: bhg.com via Christine on Pinterest

My other choices

Source: bhg.com via Christine on Pinterest

Source: bhg.com via Christine on Pinterest

Happy weekend! :) xoxo

Vanity Friday

I am declaring this day as Vanity Friday!! :) These are my photos Circa B.L (Before Lyndel).
Cheekbones! They existed! hahaha. I hope I’ll be able to (finally) slim down for good this coming year. 2013, please be kind :)

My Super Organized Closet and Dresser

Writing this post took a lot of courage on my part. Courage and acceptance that I don’t have control in all aspects of my life. I also embrace vulnerability in posting these pictures of my domestic mess. I always wanted to be dubbed as the organized Mom. But sadly, I haven’t been for a while now.
Ever since we moved to our new home, I really haven’t had the time and chance to organize things, to make a home for everything. EPPE as they call it – Everything in its Place, a Place for Everything. I have ideas but I always end up feeling uninspired maybe due to lack of the right storage implements. And these days, no matter how I try to organize our stuff, they always end up in a messy pile because they have to be placed on top of the other so that my son can’t reach them. [Read more…]

Inspire. Color. Imagine the Unimaginable.

The Power of Play and the Magic of Dreams 

 Let this be a guiding principle to all of us parents :)

I love this video! Whenever I feel down or seem to have lost my creative streak, I always turn to this. There’s a child in all of us :)